It’s hard to explain………
It’s like a deep dark muddy hole.
Sometimes you feel like your right at the bottom of the pit. Staring up at the light of the sun but unable to bask in its warm glow.
Other times your on a ledge in the pit. On a level. Your neither up or down. Your centred. Your not where you wanna be but your glad your not where you were.
And sometimes your out of the hole. Looking down and hoping you don’t end up back in the pit.
It’s like when your walking around, you just wanna burst into tears but you don’t want people seeing. It’s like the lights are on but no one’s home sort of thing (zombie distant look).
The smallest bit of sadness can trigger it off again.
Some people tell you to snap out of it. That doesn’t help. It just makes the person feeling depressed hide it better next time (pretend they’re ok).
Some people suggest seeing a doctor. That’s the best one. But it can take a lot for someone to stand up & say “I need help I’m feeling like this…..”
Sometimes it builds up & all of a sudden there’s a stream of tears rolling down your face.