*I wrote this on 27/12/2021. I’ve been deciding whether to publish & i feel now is the right time. I Love You (hopefully you know who you are).*
Not sure how i feel today.
At a crossroads of holding on, or letting you walk away.
We’ve been here many times before.
A bond we once had, now seems no more.
Bonded at birth.
I love you so much I’d of given you the Earth.
An anxious mother, stuck between empathy & discipline.
She often broke down, from deep within.
So many voices from people, telling her what to do.
When really she should of just been herself, when she was with you.
You never got to see me behind the boundaries that were set.
The rows i hope, you’ll someday soon forget.
I wish you could see, how much you really mean to me.
But i guess that’s up to destiny.
Maybe one day you’ll come back.
Maybe one day we can work on things & get back on track.
I hope one day, when you’re a mother.
I hope you listen to your inner voice above another.
You’re so full of fire & grace.
I know you won’t make my mistakes.
You’ll be calm, you’ll be clear.
You won’t the anxiety run around in the air.
You’ll be firm & always kind.
You’ve always known, your own beautiful mind.
Head strong, brave & true.
I will always love you.
The way you stand your ground & speak your truth.
The way your smile, lights up a room.
How you are, both inside & out.
I’m so very proud of you, my babygirl.
Children grow up & spread their wings.
It’s a way of life’s, one of many things.
I can’t hold on forever, that much is true.
But always know this………