Spiritual Female Cycle 06/10/2022

This evening i started to feel low in myself.

Now over the past few months whenever those low self doubt emotions pop up i always look for the lesson (not the ‘woe is me, why is this happening?’).

However this particular cycle is more in tune with my body (ladies you’ll know what cycle I’m talking about).

You see when this particular cycle hits it also affects my mood (even if I’m due on in 2 days).

I tend to overthink (alot), over analyse things/situations (replay them out over & over in my mind trying to find the best possible outcome to the situation at hand. Even though that particular moment has passed), look deeper into things & at times scrutinise myself/self doubt.

Tonight i knew it was a reminder & to remind myself these low moments would pass.

It also made me take a trip down memory lane of how i acted/interacted with those around me when i was on that particular cycle at the time of the month.

*Low
*Needy.
*Overly insecure.
*Seeker of external validation (am i doing this right? Etc).
*Extra sensitive (have i pissed that person off? I really didn’t mean to. I hope they’re ok. Should i message them to clarify things? Etc).
*Over analysing (repeatedly).

When i felt low in myself tonight, i didn’t kick my own arse like i normally would. As these last few months have taught me, these emotions/thoughts that are popping up are those that need healing & releasing.

I also surprised myself tonight also by not walking out of my job when i could feel my core temperature rising due to being pissed off (it’s been a testing week at work for me & my friend to say the least). I feel i made my point clear enough when i declined the invite to pop out for a cigarette break (i gave up smoking years ago) now normally i would be up for going out for a chit chat but tonight due to what happened, i felt i would rather get on with my job then pop outside quickly.

Honestly i just didn’t see the point, i was pissed off in that moment & i couldn’t be arsed with the pointless chit chat. But my friend knew by me declining the break that something was up & she was right (& she knew by my declining it was a polite snub). I didn’t even need to raise my voice to get my point across & i feel a boundary was drawn in the sand. To put it bluntly both my friend & I are looking for a new career path (things & feelings were cemented this week & bottom line was we weren’t happy anymore with the role).

It reminds me of a Spiritual quote i saw once about somethings aren’t worth doing unless they bring you happiness. I used to enjoy going in & doing my job. Yet this week highlighted that it was time to move on.

Ironically right now I’m questioning myself as to whether this blog has turned into a bitch or if I’m seeking a solution 😅.

I don’t want to be cliqué & blame my emotions by my time of the month. Tonight I’m feeling deeply insightful, acknowledging & listening to how I’m feel-in-g/think-in-g.

One things for sure, I’m not getting stuck in this loop/cycle.

I wonder if any of you ladies are thinking…………

Wow i reincarnated at this time in Humanity’s Spiritual Awakening as a hormonal female. Wtf was i thinking? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Wherever you are in the world/Great Mother Gaia. I hope you have a blessed day/night.

©KM2022