*This blog has a mention of suicide, low vibes, & PMS/PMDD. Ladies if you experience a low mood around your period you could have PMDD symptoms which are a more fiercer/severe version of PMS symptoms. If you feel you may need help please speak to someone you trust, seek a Dr or your local holistic therapist/DoTerra advisor (for me personally, I found essential oils really helped lift my mood when I was feeling down).*
As a Spiritualist.
I’m not love & light all the time.
I do experience low moments (particularly when I’m entering that time of the month).
However yesterday I did experience low feelings similar to mild depression & I did think about suicide (I know 1000% I’d never take that path no matter what I encounter in my life).
Yesterday I felt alone, isolated, distant & genuinely stagnant.
I looked for Spiritual answers to the term ‘suicide’ and as many Spiritual beings know. If you decide to end your soul contract early, you’ll have to reincarnate & do the same lessons all over again.
So why give up?.
Why take that path?.
Especially when you’ve come so far in your life.
Yesterday I allowed myself to feel, heal & release those emotions.
I ended up writing myself a letter called ‘Dear Self’.
Writing everything out onto paper so I could re-visit/re-read it should I feel to.
Today I AM in a/feeling a sombre mood. I’ve called all my energy back & I’ve encased/cocooned myself in an invisible bubble.
I know full well not to dwell here for too long.
Inside I AM resting & recharging.
On the outside I am operating on pilot mode so my nervous system can recalibrate & rest.
I had a beautiful dream lastnight which reminded me of going home & there was a spiral abalone shell as a door handle.
I’d like to think in the dream I visited, that I went for healing.
Sometimes our experiences in this world can overwhelm us emotionally & sometimes we can get stuck in Fight or Flight mode. Unable to switch off due to being on high alert.
I know my serotonin levels are low right now (due to my Divine Feminine time of the month approaching). And this time I’m determined not to beat myself up over a brief few days of feeling ‘low’ due to rising & shifting hormone levels.
This is the time I tend to isolate myself & encase myself in a cocoon of self love, nurture & comfort. Whilst I allow myself space to breathe & recalibrate myself.
I’m not being anti social. I am focusing on navigating any emotions that may pop up.
I’ve noticed I feel very vulnerable this time of the month.
Which to me is a chance to heal & break cycles as it’s easier for me to cry it all out & dive deeper into the root cause.
I’m still retaining an open connection with my partner (whether I need cuddles, to vent, some advice or a new perspective).
Oddly enough these last few days, chocolate hasn’t taken the edge off the low serotonin levels 🤨😕.
I know it’s another cycle coming up to be felt, healed & released.
I AM grateful for my life & I don’t want to go home for another hundred years.
I know emotions/thoughts are fleeting.
It’s staying/dwelling in stagnant waters for too long which can drag you down.
Remember the only person standing between who you are & who you want to BEcome is YOU.
You are fully in control of your life.
It all starts with a thought/feeling then an action.
Also be mindful of what you watch (especially on FB as lately I’ve noticed they’re allowing alot of murder/cannibal stories to pop up on feeds. Which is quite worrying).
Guard your energy at all times & fully release all energies which are not your own.
Don’t allow those dark vibe entities to attach to your auric/emotional/energy field.
If you’re aware of the Dark narrative of 2019/2020 you’ll understand how much resistance & strength you’ll need.
A low moment isn’t the end of your journey, it is merely a stepping stone to wait on until the next stepping stone appears.
Metaphorically think of it like.
You’re waiting at a train station & you’re patiently waiting for the train to arrive.
Low moments are merely a stop.
They are not a destination.
Think of how far you’ve come on your journey already.
Isn’t it beautiful 💖🌍✨️
Wherever you are in the world/Great Mother Gaia. I hope you have a blessed day/night.
©KM2023