21st/23rd Blog

*I wrote this on 21/02/2023. On the day the experience happened* So…….. I had a panic attack earlier (due to feeling an intense heart palpation). My heart is fine. It’s crazy how it was caused due to walking into a hot office environment. All I could think was “I need to get back to myContinue reading “21st/23rd Blog”

The Last 7/8Days Blog 14/01/2023

So as many of you might be wondering……. ‘Where’s she gone? Where’s the next blog?’. Well here’s blog number 2 of today. As some of you may be aware, I’ve been struggling with anxiety for the past 3years (heart palpations which triggered the anxiety). Well you’ll be pleased to know I haven’t touched the prescribedContinue reading “The Last 7/8Days Blog 14/01/2023”

Breakdown -to- Breakthrough Blog 06/01/2023

It takes me a long time til I feel I’ve reached that breaking point. I go a while facing ups & downs. Building myself back together piece by piece each time. Tonight I’ve reached that breaking point.I found a corner of my front room where I can hide, cuddled a pillow & cried my eyesContinue reading “Breakdown -to- Breakthrough Blog 06/01/2023”

The 10year/Stepping Into 2023 Blog

Happy New Year. As some may know I’ve been taking some time out over the festive period to sort myself out & come back into alignment. 2022 was a year of lessons, blessings & evolving for me. I learned so much (from letting people go, to moments of feeling lost/solitude, to finding my power &Continue reading “The 10year/Stepping Into 2023 Blog”

24/12/2022 Christmas Epiphany Blog

This blog is taken from a private diary entry which I wrote…….. Saturday 24/12/2022. I had a heart palp earlier & said ‘my name’ over & over in my head. I cried then I focused on my centre.My sacred space.My heart.And I realised why so many have a ‘fear’ of death.Love.Love for those who weContinue reading “24/12/2022 Christmas Epiphany Blog”

With Each Beat Blog 16/12/2022

I felt the urge to write this blog. As some know I have been feeling anxious these last couple of weeks. Now some may be asking… “What have you got to be anxious about?”. Like it’s become a competition or you’ve possibly felt your thoughts/feelings are irrational when compared to someone else’s life. At timesContinue reading “With Each Beat Blog 16/12/2022”

Reflecting On Yesterday’s Moments 13/12/2022

Whilst I’m lying in bed.Comfy & cosy.I feel to reflect on yesterday’s moments. I woke up.Got dressed.Headed out on a walk to see how bad the ice/snow was to drive in.Cleared the snow off my car.Went to work.Heart palpitation.Anxiety triggered.Finished work.Came home.Rang NHS.Call back go to A&E.Was seen & ecg done.Went to ACU.Bloods taken.Red facedContinue reading “Reflecting On Yesterday’s Moments 13/12/2022”

Film- Drop Dead Fred, Inner Child & Anxiety Blog 08/12/2022

I remember fondly watching a film called….. Drop Dead Fred. It was a childhood favourite & is still one of my favourites to this day. Whilst I was connecting & inner talking to my inner child earlier I had a realisation. The film Drop Dead Fred starring Rik Mayall is about the inner child. TheContinue reading “Film- Drop Dead Fred, Inner Child & Anxiety Blog 08/12/2022”

Instagram Mini Blog 17/07/2022

When i was advised to Focus On Myself a month ago. I really didn’t like it. I went through feel-in-gs of…. Sadness.Loss.Loneliness.Isolation.Mild depression.Up & down moods.Grief at evolving connections. I went through a few moments of abandonment (& that’s when the ‘Victimhood’ persona/shadow was screaming in my face). I genuinely felt lost & deeply alone.Continue reading “Instagram Mini Blog 17/07/2022”

Brutally Honest Healing Poems & 3 Day Blog 11/07/2022

***********Poem-1************ I’ve been……..Colouring.Painting.Drawing.Writing.Yet no matter what i do.I can’t seem to out run the feeling.This has been 1 of the lowest moments.I’ve experienced.No number of distractions.Are kick starting the healing.I’m stone faced.Blank.Numb.I’ve had many moments, yet i can’t seem to shift this one.Lost.Can’t seem to find my way.Circle after cycle.Can’t seem to navigate myself evenContinue reading “Brutally Honest Healing Poems & 3 Day Blog 11/07/2022”