It’s hard to explain………..
It’s like a deep muddy hole.
Sometimes you feel like you’re right at the bottom of the pit.
Staring up at the light of the sun but unable to bask in It’s warm glow.
Other times you’re on a ledge in the pit.
On a level.
You’re neither up nor down.
You’re not where you want to be but you’re glad you’re not where you were.
And sometimes you’re out of the hole.
Looking down & hoping you don’t end up back in the pit.
It’s like when you’re walking around, you just wanna burst into tears but you don’t want people seeing.
It’s like the lights are on but no ones home sort of thing (zombie distant look).
The smallest bit of sadness can trigger it off again.
Some people tell you to snap out of it.
That doesn’t help.
It just makes the person feeling depressed hide it better next time (pretend they’re ok).
Some people suggest seeing a doctor.
That’s the best one.
But it can take alot for someone to stand up & say “I need help. I’m feeling like this…….”.
Sometimes it builds up & all of a sudden there’s a stream of tears rolling down your face………