I was planning on writing this blog alot earlier than 21.21pm.
It was in the early hours of today’s moments when i felt inspired to blog.
Just as the sun was rising amongst the trees & the wonderous glow radiating everything the glorious light touched.
Whilst I was driving, I felt very grateful. Sure, many of us sometimes Feel we haven’t yet got all that we wish & dream in life. However in the early moments of today i felt grateful & humble.
A far cry from how I was feel-in-g 10years ago (severe depression & suicidal thoughts).
I’ve had 2 big loves in my life. The 1st turned out to be a lesson & the 2nd became a blessing (& he still is all these years later).
Yet there was a rollercoaster of 6x 1night stands in between these 2 prominent loves. Now please bare in mind this was a chapter of my life where i was depressed & desperate to be loved (I was chasing it nearly every weekend that feeling of looking for someone just hold me. Even for a short while).
Funnily enough that’s when I came across *M*.
He was into a friend at the time & she wasn’t interested.
Yet, things soon started to happen. Meet ups every weekend just chatting as friends & well you can guess what happened after a few months.
Yet 1night when the ‘thing’ was done & I said “You’ve had me now, you can go”.
He looked at me perplexed & confused.
And said he didn’t want to go.
We became an item from that moment on.
It wasn’t until a few months into dating eachother when he told me 1 of the reasons he got with me: “You needed saving” he told me.
Hard to believe we’re still together at times after years of ups & downs.
Especially me, I can be a handful to live with at times 😅
Sure we’ve had a few times when each of us would feel like “right, I’ve had enough let’s split”.
Yet, part of me knows we probably never would of evolved if we didn’t challenge eachother at times.
I realise now some patterns needed to be broken so we could come back together stronger than ever.
He really did save me all those years ago (and he knows it).
It’s crazy to think how differently life could have turned out if we didn’t take *that* life changing chance.
Sure I’ve got a few regrets in my life (missed opportunities, lost crushes I should of said yes to, career learning etc).
Yet all those little stepping stones of mishaps, mistakes, breakdowns & tears.
Lead me to a man I can’t imagine not seeing everyday (even if some of my jokes/sarcasm is off the chart 😅).
He’s the only 1 who’s seen me when I’ve been at my most vulnerable & has seen the mess I’ve been in after a tidal wave of tears.
So although part of me still wonders off in my head now & again, contemplating the complexities of the TwinFlame spiritual aspect, daydreams, losses things & sometimes I get stuck in my own head.
I know I’ve got a man by my side who keeps me grounded when my head’s up in the clouds or if I’m starting to feel low (he can tell by 1 look how I’m feeling, without a word being spoken between us).
It’s like his superpower.
Crazy to think of how we 1st met (no, I won’t tell that story as even I cringe when we speak about it).
Yet when I look back at all those years, it still surprises me how much we’ve gone through, evolved, how far we’ve come & our future.
Although I’m engaged, I don’t wear the ring. It’s going to take alot to tie me down 😆
I still have my wild ways yet I’m loyal to 1.
Crazy to think how far we’ve come.
This is a far cry from the severely depressed suicidal version of me 10years ago.
So I may not have won the Euromillions jackpot, but I do have what I need.
Loyalty.
Love.
Comfort.
Support.
Encouragement.
Laughter (& lots of Sarcasm & daily banter).
He has a special place where I go whenever life gets too much & it’s always within in arms.
Fuck.
I actually DO love this man.
🎶Isn’t it a wonder……….🎶
Wherever you are in the world/Great Mother Gaia. I hope you have a blessed day/night.
©KM2022
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